Marianne - far far away

Friday, October 12, 2007

Depression?

PSALM 88
1 O LORD, the God who saves me,
day and night I cry out before you.
2 May my prayer come before you;
turn your ear to my cry.
3 For my soul is full of trouble
and my life draws near the grave.
4 I am counted among those who go down to the pit;
I am like a man without strength.
5 I am set apart with the dead,
like the slain who lie in the grave,
whom you remember no more,
who are cut off from your care.
6 You have put me in the lowest pit,
in the darkest depths.
7 Your wrath lies heavily upon me;
you have overwhelmed me with all your waves. Selah
8 You have taken from me my closest friends
and have made me repulsive to them.
I am confined and cannot escape;
9 my eyes are dim with grief.
I call to you, O LORD, every day;
I spread out my hands to you.
10 Do you show your wonders to the dead?
Do those who are dead rise up and praise you? Selah
11 Is your love declared in the grave,
your faithfulness in Destruction?
12 Are your wonders known in the place of darkness,
or your righteous deeds in the land of oblivion?
13 But I cry to you for help, O LORD;
in the morning my prayer comes before you.
14 Why, O LORD, do you reject me
and hide your face from me?
15 From my youth I have been afflicted
and close to death;
I have suffered your terrors and am in despair.
16 Your wrath has swept over me;
your terrors have destroyed me.
17 All day long they surround me like a flood;
they have completely engulfed me.
18 You have taken my companions and loved ones from me;
the darkness is my closest friend.



Coming to England I have got a feeling that sadness and vulnerability are not welcome in the church. It is almost as if God's people have to be "happy-clappy" all the time!
It is frustrating me!
As human beings we experience pain, relief, agony, love, frustration, anger, depression, happiness, and a huge spectrum of sometimes overwhelming emotions. In the Bible we learn how even those who were closest to God struggled with depression (psalm 88). So why can't we express these feelings in Church? The Church should be a safe place where people can meet the grace, love and embrace of a faithful God. Who cares if you wear a tie? Struggling with God and your faith is so important, and the Church should be the place where people can express these struggles and be met with understanding.
I almost want to start something called "depressed-Church" where doubt, anger, sadness and tears can be released and where you won't be asked if "God has been good to you?" and are expected to clap your hands and laugh. Surely God is worthy of praise, but He is also worthy of honesty. He knows what you are struggling with anyway so share it with Him, communicate! Express your confusion of emotions to God!

Who created emotions?
Who is faithful?
Who is all knowing?
Who is always present?


Psalm 62
1My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.




a last note... The book of Psalms in the Bible were the "Hymn-book" in the time of Jesus. Do we have anything like psalm 88 in todays repetoire? Shouldn't we?

3 Comments:

  • Det där var fint skrivet!

    By Blogger Sofie U, At 13:14  

  • Tack sofie =) Var inte helt klar men nu är den färdig. De är kul att du läser här ibland =) Jag är inte så bra på att updatera :S och inte heller på att skriva om vad vi gör, men det är mest för att vi inte gör så mycket. Vi tar det mest lugnt. Så livet är=slapp i helgerna + stress med skola o jobb i veckan :)
    KRAMAR

    By Blogger Marianne Lamberth, At 21:25  

  • Jag läser ofta :) Tycker ofta det är bra det du skriver. Min blogg är på ett helt annat...ytligare...plan. :)
    Att livet är slappt på helgerna och stress på vardagarna känner jag förresen till, precis samma här! Kram

    By Blogger Sofie U, At 18:18  

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